You're Gonna Miss This....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZIBediEAcUQ

I was thinking the other day that some of you may not understand the title of my new blog. "You're Gonna Miss This". Let me explain...there is a most sweet country song (giddy up, I'm a country fanatic) that just really embodies how I feel about this season of my life. I tend to be very emotional with my memories in life. I hold them in my heart with every breath I take. A simple smell or the familiar crunch of gravel underneath my feet can transport me back to the ranch I grew up on and my eyes fill with tears. Not sad tears because it's over but happy ones because it Happened. I've been through a lot, I've walked through fire and have grown and expanded in ways I never asked but my heavens...would I take any of it back? No. I've loved and lost in life and I truly know how fast it goes. I've seemed to always have this gift. In high school, I bawled listening to Celine Dion on my way to my senior dance team performance in my little yellow VW convertible bug...just shattered and crushed that I knew it would be my last. I cried when my mom dropped me off at college...and pretty sure I tried to switch my major 10 times at least trying to figure out how to never leave college. True story. The night before graduation was spent with my best friends at our local hangout where many a memory went down, Murphys. The token closing time song came on, which very oddly was always "New York, New York" and I completely lost it. My friend Katie has it on tape. My point is that I really soak it in, this life. Now that seasons have come and gone and my 2 babies are at this beautiful stage of life that I know is so fleeting I hold on to each day like the sun may never rise again. These kids and us...we have fun. We do have boundaries and all that but we really try to live. We dance wildly, we swim and get ice cream almost every day. Bedtime is usually just "whenever" especially in the summer and I look at both of those little blonde darlings every single day in the eye and tell them that they are special, smart, gorgeous, polite and fun.That any kid we meet would be lucky to have them as friends. I tell them both at bed when I tuck them in that they are my best friends...and they are. When they crawl in our bed at night..we don't kick them out usually. Know why? Because I know something....we will MISS THIS. We'll want it back. We'll wish these days hadn't gone by so fast. These are some good times so take a good look around. You may not know it now, but you'll miss this.